Monday morning... D-day. I got up, put a pot on and checked the emails for the day... Got some work done... showered, and then set out to finish the trilogy. Day 3... Are we mice or are we men?! All I knew was that the tractor was going to be extricated today. I drove up to the barn area to get 4 buckets of large stones for traction. But who do I see wandering around the property... Andy. The cows had I guess run out of food and Andy here was just foraging. Now I had heard that the way you get them back into the pasture is to lure them with their favorite grain. Great way to start the morning... 'luring' a 1,000 lbs. of muscle & horns.
Now, I 'know' they're docile... I 'know' they're more afraid of us than we of them :-? I 'know' they wouldn't hurt a fly... I've grained them plenty of times before. But that's when they were inside the pasture, no frenzy... and all I did was hop the fence, get their bowls, talk to them with the 'calm voice' ... and when they approached, I'd just move slowly in between them, reminding myself that... "I know they're docile, I know they're more afraid of us"... and... "they won't just decide to stomp & gore the new guy bringing them treats..." But when Home Boy here starts to follow me back down to the pasture, with the scent of 'treats' in the air... he comes a runnin'... He's also running because he sees the others waiting by the gate and doesn't want to get left out. Frenzy... all I hear are heavy hooves 20 feet away and getting closer... and my newest internal monologue... "They don't stomp & gore the guy bringing them treats". 
Day 3... here's the morning view. Notice the front tire is now about 7 feet away from the black drain... We had made great progress. So with the fresh light of a new day... I survey the damage and see that it's completely high centered from axle to axle. The first step is to get all the packed dirt out from underneath so that the tires could put their full weight on the ground and not drag the under carriage. Sweat was poring, and my back reminded me "Use your legs Dumb Ass." 
I even made a trough for the front tire, that so far had not been any help because it was sitting in mud before and just spun. I wedged a board against the dirt wall and piled on the rocks... this way it would funnel them under the tire as it began to turn. I did the best prep work I could because I was determined to make this 'extraction' on the first try. I mean, this was a great challenge and all, but...
When I went back to get more rocks (for the just in case) I bumped into Denise and told her "I think we're ready." In my mind... I thought that the tractor might actually be able to drive itself out with out the Jeep. So Denise hopped on to the tractor and I suggested she go slow at first... and let's see if we get traction. The tires started to hook up, but it just wasn't enough. We didn't want to destroy all the prep work... So I got the chain and hooked up the Jeep... put it in reverse... and got it out on the first try. The beast had broken free... for the second time today. And no need to spend an unexpected 2-$300 right before Christmas... 
I'm not sure what my lesson was today... but I guess I'll have that worked out before I get to the end of the paragraph ;-) It's not so much about today's lesson... Today was just the affirmation of yesterday's intent. No, it's about those that have been culminating over the past couple days... and what it is that I learned about myself, and people. Now these are my personal insights, and this is a public post... But I can say that during the past couple of days, some 'internal resistance' crept up... (those who know the teachings of Abraham know what I mean). Nothing big... but enough for the 'monkey mind' to grab hold of for a few hours here & there. And so before looking to find fault outside, this time..... I asked myself... 'What energy am I bringing to the table?'..... We all know a large part of life's experiences is meeting all types of people, and learning about them.... And when our worlds meet, we 'evaluate' or 'judge' them through our own eyes... which naturally is a tainted process... But it's the only one we have..... right?! ... or is it? For the next couple of days, I'm going to try and look at myself from the outside... and see what I contributed to this very 'minor' discourse..... and change it. I'll have to get back to you on that one... :-) Thanks for 'Listening'...
WoW!...Ya got that f@#**er out! good going!
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